hmm my weekend.

well went to the civic on friday, got very drunk, was all good.

saturday i went to kyles party with oliver.

it was all going well, then for some reason oliver got really drunk, things got a little well..

in the end we sorted things out & then i had to take him home because he was drunk.

taxi cost me fucking £18.50 (which oliver paid me back).

we went back to mine, ordered a pizza & watched southpark.

sunday was really good, me & oliver watched i am legend, which is shit! it's a crap version of 28days later, i was so dissapointed, i'm so glad i didn't waste £7 going to the cinema.

me & oliver had a lovely day i think :)

he missed his train so he got to stay longer.

i'm actually really happy atm, things have been re-assured i think.

i'm working today & tomorow which sux some right penis.

going up to oliver's on boxing day cause his grandma's invited me to their party thingy.

bless his mum! she's bought me an elliott smith album for christmas <3

well i'm getting ready for work soon.

merry mitmas everyone!

i'm looking forward to opening my presents all by myself tomorow, oh well me & lion will get through it :)

went out last night & stayed at kyles.

i had a really good time, got rather drunk.

there was a lot of coke at the party & at one stage we got accused of nicking the £20 they were using to snort it up & some big crazy woman was saying she was going to batter me.

it's all good fun.

today i saw my dad for the first time since february.

it's strange really cause i only started talking to him via text yesterday.

i got in the car, he hugged me for about 10 minutes, told me he'd missed me & he cried.

i couldn't believe it.

he wasn't well, he took me to meadowhall & bought me a new scarf & dinner :)

also he's going to take me to the tattooist that's going to finish off his sleeve & i'm going to get the one on my wrist re-coloured & have more work done around it i think.

i did miss him lots.

my ear piercing has got infected & it hurts like a bitch. constantly throbbing & oozing stuff.

i really miss oliver.

i want to see him so bad, but i wont actually get to see him while this weekend which is crap!

i rang him up at 2.40am this morning.

i can't actually remember any of our conversation or me ringing him up.

i'm so happy i've got him i really am. the shit he puts up with (which isn't that much cause i'm good) bless him.

he makes me feel so safe & loved. he's amazing.

i love him :) can't wait to spend christmas time & the new year with him!

no one actually reads my blog as i have no friends but that's okay, i suppose this is a blog for me.

right, so whats been going on with me recently.

well me & oliver are going great, happiest i've been in a while to be honest.

he's really special.

he took me to meadowhall yesterday & bought me a new teddy, which just so happens to be a simba one from the disney store. he also bought me my christmas present, well put the deposit on it, & the insurance aha.

it's a really pretty set of earings, bracelet & necklace, silver with diamonds in.

it's costing him like £70 :x

but yeah things are amazing at the moment, it just sux that i can't see him till next weekend sometime.

i went into hospital because on halloween jennie had a party in which i passed out crying in pain, & had to go to bed early & miss work. the pain didn't go so her & oliver made me go to the doctors.

jennie went with me for the doctor to turn round & say "O HAI, I THINK U HAVE APPENDICITS, U SHUD RLY GO TO THE HOSPITAL."

so i went home, told my mum & got taken to hospital.

i had to stay in overnight & had 6 needles, a drip in for 3 days, blood tests, had to piss in i don't know how many cups, & then have an operation. turns out it wasn't my appendix though, was just some fluid on the outside of my stomach. my belly button was deformed for a bit but it looks better now.

what else.. oh yeah. loads of shit went off with my dad that i didn't know anything about but whatever. & now my mums telling me that he's been coming to her work & demanding to see us. basically she's told him that the kids wont but she didn't say anything about me so he wants me to ring him sometime.

i  don't really know what to do. i mean what do you say to someone who you haven't spoke to in 9 months & left on really bad terms with? :/ so as per my heads a little fucked right now, ecspecially since i keep having dreams with him in them.

BIG GAY KYLE CAME ROUND TO MINE TODAY. i have so much college work it's unreal. i'm so behind & there's so much to do ;__; he came round to help me, i absolutely adore that boy & all his campness.

infact i'm staying at his tomorow night & we may or may not be going to a party. we're going to get pissed of our tree either there, or at his. having a girlie night in right :)

oh, my mum found out about my second tattoo on my wrist yesterday after me & jake had a fall out & he told her. she didn't seem too bothered, just asked how i could afford it. i'm thinking of getting a madonna piercing too.

i also had to have a 20minute meeting with my tutor today as jennie gave me the trc prospectus in the middle of class, she was less than pleased.

i'm going to paris too! as a residental of course but it sounds pretty cool. we have masterclasses in directing & things, also we get to go the film festival taking place & we get to spend a day at disney land! i'm actually really looking forward to it. i get on with mainly everyone in my class apart from a certain few :)

& that's it, my life over the past few months right there.

i really actually adore oliver.

last night was horrible.

i was so drunk, & still feel drunk now.

worse than i've been in a long time.

made a complete arse of myself.

pissed a fair few people off, including my mum, which is never good.

arguing with your mum when you can't even see at 2 in the morning was not one of my better ideas.

so to everyone who it involves i guess.

i'm sorry, i really am. you have every right to be mad at me.

xo